Tuesday, April 29, 2014

A Peek Into Total Surrender.

He was:

Fearless.

Faithful.

Dead to self.

Burning with a desire for the salvation of souls.

Humble.

He loved God with "perfect love."


Meanwhile another traveler was approaching Constance. Huss was conscious of the dangers which threatened him. He parted from his friends as if he were never to meet them again, and went on his journey feeling that it was leading him to the stake. Notwithstanding he had obtained a safe-conduct from the king of Bohemia, and received one also from the emperor Sigismund while on his journey, he made all his arrangements in view of the probability of his death.
In a letter addressed to his friends at Prague he said: "My brethren, . . . I am departing with a safe-conduct from the king to meet my numerous and mortal enemies. . . . I confide altogether in the all-powerful God, in my Saviour; I trust that He will listen to your ardent prayers, that He will infuse His prudence and His wisdom into my mouth, in order that I may resist them; and that He will accord me His Holy Spirit to fortify me in His truth, so that I may face with courage, temptations, prison, and, if necessary, a cruel death. Jesus Christ suffered for His well-beloved; and therefore ought we to be astonished that He has left us His example, in order that we may ourselves endure with patience all things for our own salvation? He is God, and we are His creatures; He is the Lord, and we are His servants; He is Master of the world, and we are contemptible mortals--yet He suffered! Why, then, should we not suffer also, particularly when suffering is for us a purification? Therefore, beloved, if my death ought to contribute to His glory, pray that it may come quickly, and that He may enable me to support all my calamities with constancy. But if it be better that I return amongst you, let us pray to God that I may return without stain--that is, that I may not suppress one tittle of the truth of the gospel, in order to leave my brethren an excellent example to follow. Probably, therefore, you will nevermore behold my face at Prague; but should the will of the all-powerful God deign to restore me to you, let us then advance with a firmer heart in the knowledge and the love of His law."--Bonnechose, vol. 1, pp. 147, 148.
In another letter, to a priest who had become a disciple of the gospel, Huss spoke with deep humility of his own errors, accusing himself "of having felt pleasure in wearing rich apparel and of having wasted hours in frivolous occupations." He then added these touching admonitions: "May the glory of God and the salvation of souls occupy thy mind, and not the possession of benefices and estates. Beware of adorning thy house more than thy soul; and, above all, give thy care to the spiritual edifice. Be pious and humble with the poor, and consume not thy substance in feasting. Shouldst thou not amend thy life and refrain from superfluities, I fear that thou wilt be severely chastened, as I am myself. . . . Thou knowest my doctrine, for thou hast received my instructions from thy childhood; it is therefore useless for me to write to thee any further. But I conjure thee, by the mercy of our Lord, not to imitate me in any of the vanities into which thou hast seen me fall." On the cover of the letter he added: "I conjure thee, my friend, not to break this seal until thou shalt have acquired the certitude that I am dead."-- Ibid., vol. 1, pp. 148, 149.

                                                                                                   {Great Controversy pg. 104.4.-105.2}
We also can be:

Fearless.

Faithful.

Dead to self.

Burning with a desire for the salvation souls.

Humble.

We CAN love God with "perfect love."

Right?

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Joy, Thankfulness, and Conformation

Today was a blessing.

This morning I saw an e-mail I've been waiting for for some weeks, I shrieked fro joy as I read the first several words, and said....

"Mammy I got accepted to Uchee!"
"Let me see!" she replied.

Then I read the rest of the e-mail.

Next I then called my grandmother, and shared the news with her.

After joyful praises to God, my parents prayed with and for me, thanking God for what He has done, and for His will to be done.

After which I went outside for my daily prayer walk, thanking Him once again, (you can never thank Him enough really) and also that I will follow uncompromisingly His will and plan for my life. "Twas beautiful!"

Later on in the day certain things that I needed just started to fall right in place, and all I could say is....

" WOW Lord, thank you...It's just conformation that this is Your will."

I will by God's grace follow wither soever He leads me.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

God Is Love

*My heart is full, there's so much I want to write...
One thing that stands out though, that "God is love"...
That's a very common thing to say,many people say it, it's basically a cliche. But to sit down, with Ministry of Healing, the Bible, my journal and with the "much needed" aid of the Holy Spirit, while meditating and praying, I saw...that God truly is love. And love is God. Although I may slip and fall, all muddy and dirty I may be, His loving hands is stretched out as He offers to pick me up. And if I'm smart enough I'll take hold of his tender hands and get up. And amazingly, as He has "full"grasp of me, at once He cleanses me of all my filthiness, and from muddy and dirty with His robe of righteousness put on me I'm fresh, white and clean. But if I choose not to lay hold of His hand, with tears in His eyes He pleads that I give Him my hands, for His heart breaks to see me so loathsome, He desires to pick me up and make me clean...He also have given freedom of choice, because He's so loving. And if I continue to reject and push away, and say no to the Lord, He will go away, pained in heart of the hardness and coldness of my heart. As Jesus has left the old devil now has sway over me, and it would be better had I not be born.

  How can I do such a thing?
How can I have such a cold, hard heart?
But when I sin I;m pushing Him away, until He goes, (because, only because of me). No more tender hands, tearful eyes, and His loving heart...And to think if that happens, (and it wouldn't by God's grace) I will still have a place in His heart, He will never forget me. That's love. God is the definition of love. That's the love that I long for,...I "will" to love as Jesus loves. 

*Journal entry (4-16-14)